NeuroticApe

Today, at 11:20AM I had an appointment with the Doctor. Nearly had a heart attack at the cost, but hey, this is America, jack! But I’m getting ahead of myself. For breakfast, I ate eggs and avocado – and discussed w/ a fellow Whole30 graduate at work about the joys of the incredible edible egg. I wouldn’t have made it through this thing without eggs and potatoes. She was impressed at making scrambled eggs in the microwave. It’s brilliant… but maybe it’s also why I’m feeling funny?

Anywho, the morning went smooth, and I was off to see the doctor at Caesar Strong. Heart rate got up to 96 driving…. 96! But more importantly, I can literally count the beats of my heart just sitting. Getting in was smooth, and I felt cared for. The cost was extraordinary, but this was an extraordinary circumstance for me in other ways that were more important. And this is what an HSA is for.

I had my first EKG, inconclusive, or normal. The cardiologist said it was normal, but the doc in the room with me had concerns enough to ask the cardiologist to review it. He mentioned something that started w/ a P as if I was familiar with it. Regardless, heart seems fine. He humored me with the blood test, and all of that checked out in normal baseline as well. And an X-ray showed nothing.

As expected, its all in my head? Or it’s actually happening and the machines can’t register it! Makes me feel like I’m paranoid to have that thought. So I’m instead moving on with my life. This is normal I guess…

Fast forward to being home at lunch, I played with the hip cat, I can tell she’s getting toned and slimmer. Glad this diet is working for her too. (it’s how much I’m playing with her and giving her exclusively wet food). I ate more egg salad, and returned to work by 1PM. Finished out my day after talking with my girlfriend, since I’ll be cooking it’s Chili time!

I found another home-run of a recipe for Sweet Potato Chili, and ooooh boy it’s good. I always thought I need beans in my chili like a good northerner. Turns out, I just need sweet potato. This will be my go to chili recipe at cook-offs and potlucks. It took almost all of the Chili powder we had but it’s worth it.

Later that night I was feeling good about feeling funny, and we slept kinda early for once. In bed before midnight. Wow.

Woke up feeling much the same as yesterday. Optimistic that it might go away, I told myself I’d call the Doctor at work if I was still feeling funny. I grabbed a couple of eggs, cracked them into a zip-loc, and a mini avocado. I’m going to just eat these from now on. If eggs and avo are going to cause any detriment, I guess I’m gonna have to have a heart problem.

For lunch I made egg-salad & used my girlfriends instant pot to do it. That thing makes great hard-boiled eggs with a lot less effort (not that it was much effort in the first place). Just as many eggs as you can fit in a single-layer on a truss in the instant pot, with 1 cup of water. Set for 6 minutes, and 16 minutes later… they’re ready. No, that’s not a typo. Yes I said 6 minute timer and 16 minutes later. The instant pot still has to “warm up” and that takes about 10 minutes. *shrug* The eggs are good and it freed me up to play with our cat before feeding her. Win, win.

Lunch was cut short because of a meeting… again. This is how we run things, and that’s all I’ll say about that. No time to think about my heart, but hey, if I didn’t’ think about it that means it wasn’t that bad. Or I’m getting used to it.

Fast forward to the evening, and I thought I’d make baked potato and broccoli with my own brand of “cheesy sauce” based on nutritional yeast and a nut milk. But then, I had an epiphany, why not Broccoli “Cheese” Soup! So I set home from work to pick up the missing ingredients (and in hindsight: I judged correctly what we needed, hooray!).

The soup was a small effort to make, and didn’t turn out quite as creamy as hoped. But thanks to the immersion blender it was saved. Very few chunks of potato or carrot left, but that’s just fine. Most of the B&C soup I’ve had has been viscous liquid, and now so is this B&”C”. My heart felt labored again while cooking in the kitchen, rate go up to 105, like I was walking or something… but not consistently.

After dinner, I sat to calm down a bit, and called the Advice Nurse. I was met with the type of incredulity I expected and would likely have for someone reporting what I’m feeling. I don’t blame them. But it really stinks to feel like something is amiss, and be questioned. Although, it’s really what they’re for isn’t it? I’m lucky to be able to do this in all honesty.

I went to sleep after folding my clothes, Marie Kondo style, that I could have just brushed aside. But, even in my weakened state, I thought it’d be best to show myself I can still do things and stick to my plans. That’s why I cooked dinner after all.

Today I woke up, feeling better than yesterday, but still knowing something was off. I’m scheduling an appointment with my as yet undefined Doctor with my new medical coverage for the year. What a time for something to get weird in my body…

For breakfast, I had eggs, an a baby avocado. Perhaps I’ve had too much iron with all the spinach lately? I can only guess. Anyway, it’s been a chill day at work. Had a last minute meeting (aren’t they all?) set for right after lunch, which cut my usual lunch short but at least I knew about it before lunch this time.

I went home with the idea of making a wrap, thanks to a post on Reddit this weekend, giving glory to the collard green as a versatile thing. I set water on to boil, and fed the cat. A few minutes later, I blanched a couple of large collard green leaves. Once again, I surprised myself with how tasty and simple it was. It’s not for everyone… who can take the time to freshly blanch a collard green at work? But I’ll find out tomorrow if the 2nd one I made is good the next day or not…

For Dinner we had cracklin’ chicken, purple kale & onions (should have used red onions, doh), and two-kinds of potatoes. It was tasty, but pedestrian compared to all the veggie rich foods we’ve been eating. Super satisfying though.

If I’m feeling this way tomorrow, I need to make an appointment… because as much as I want to eat more Tuna this week, I don’t know if it’s a good idea to continue on that path right now. A diagnosis from a doctor will go a long way to easing my mind.

Today, I slept in. Didn’t rouse until 1PM, but had a few moments of conciousness spent researching Dr. Google for my heart. 48 hours of this can’t be a good sign? But the weather is absolutely outstanding today, and when I was feeling decent I asked my girlfriend if she’d like to go for a walk.

She was all set to start prepping lunch, and had cleaned most of the ktichen and living room… such a sweetheart letting me sleep in. I asked her if she had eaten yet, and she hadn’t. Was planning on the lunch…but she acquiesced and nuked a compliant sausage to fuel up before the walk.

We walked down to the local hospital (unrelated, it’s just the simplest route to take) and back, and I kept an eye on my heart rate. While my resting/standing heart rate is higher than usual, my walking rate is great… 102 was the highest it hit. My watch tells me 98 was my average. How is it that cooking in the kitchen at home can push me above 102 and average of 95? Walking is assuredly more effort…

Anyway, I was planning on fasting until nightfall, to give my digestion a break but the bananas from our food delivery were ripe and ready. Potassium couldn’t hurt right? So I ate one of those, a handful of raspberries and blueberries and some almond butter. Didn’t hurt. Didn’t help.

For dinner we stumbled into a “Ramen” due to some soft-boiled eggs that were intended to be hard boiled. And it was a great accident. Simple to cook, and the base was as good as it could have been for lacking Soy. I want to try to make proper Ramen when we’re off of this diet. It wasn’t too challenging to do and tasted great. The noodles were cabbage, but we couldn’t find good napa as the recipe called for an went for savoy. A bit too soft but tasty none-the-less.

Will see how I feel tomorrow…

Writing this in hindsight: it’s hard to remember what we did unfortunately. Our plans this weekend have been set aside (more organizing, more exercise) by this feeling I’m having a difficult time describing. My heart rate is still too high, it feels almost labored to pump… but not enough to be scary right now. Seems as long as I chill out, things are fine.

I don’t even remember who cooked breakfast, or if we had it. Nor do I remember lunch. But I’m sure we ate something. I need to keep up with this daily. I was doing good, and got lazy this week because nothing much changed. Maybe my heart is really attached to this thing, and was upset I wasn’t posting daily.

Dinner, however, I can’t forget.

On top of my own ailment, my girlfriends Mom called her up on her way to the hospital (“I should go too”, I thought, but I’m a typical guy and past experience with doctors leads me to have little faith anything would be different except my wallet being lighter). She was having pains in her upper abdomen/chest…gallbladder she suspected. As a fellow sufferer of the pain, I can empathize extraordinarily.

My girlfriend said she’d cook tonight, and wanted to make encrusted white fish. So off to the store we go. I’m not feeling terrible, and it’s nice to get out of the house. We picked up some frozen pacific pollock among other needs and returned home to cook.

Her Mom came over, and we talked shop about gallstones for a bit. My Mother brought me up to believe in trying holistic care, and oddly enough two things really helped my gallstone pain. Malic acid, from apples: eat an apple or drink pressed cider, and dandelion root tea. I keep both things around just in case it ever acts up again, and after about 10 minutes of eating the apple, her pain had reduced greatly. The dandelion root tea also helped almost make it disappear.

Dinner was a homerun. And having her Mom over was a pleasant reminder that even though we’re on this diet, we can still entertain. My girlfriend suggested we watch Doctor Sleep (Director’s cut, it’s long enough already, may as well go the full mile of what the director wanted) because her Mom loved The Shining. It was an impressive movie. Right up her alley, with magic and witchcraft, and it really treated the character with respect and felt attached perfectly.

After the movie, she was feeling better and we bid her farewell in the wee hours of the morning. We sent her home with dandelion root tea… but I hope she hears from a doctor soon. It took me 5 visits, the 5th was to the E.R. while feeling unbelievable pain, to get diagnosed. 4 before that were to my useless Primary Care Physician who had given me heart burn medication each time, even though I told him it wasn’t working and asked to see a GI….I’m still bitter about it.

One more week to go! It has been a relatively easy 3 weeks, until today…

Midday, my heart started racing. This is a new feeling. We’re talking a rate of 78+ BPM sitting at my desk at work. I had eaten fried, sunny side up, eggs for breakfast 2 hours prior, over some spaghetti squash. Something I ate two days before with no issue.

I wasn’t quite sure what to do, and I was the only person in the office, but then as I was having a righteous panic attack, which certainly didn’t help my heart rate, one of the guys way down the hall came in. That set me at ease… if anything terrible happened I’d at least have another soul to depend on.

So I did what any red-blooded American would and decided to eat. Maybe it was something up with my metabolism, I thought. I had brought the last of my tuna salad, that I left out for a few hours yesterday, and it tasted just fine. This was my third time this week eating it though and I want to avoid it afterward – for the mercury.

For some reason I decided to continue working well passed my 40 hours, attempting to recover data from a co-workers computer that just wouldn’t boot into Windows anymore. After a few hours of trouble shooting, I declared the drive mostly dead and started to try to use Spinrite on it. But I’d need to decrypt it first. Let me make a long story short and say, the security decisions at work have only made my job harder and that I wasn’t able to run Spinrite today… Left it decrypting over the weekend and cleaned up my work area to be a bit less chaotic next week.

When I got home, my heart rate was feeling better, but I probably should have measured it first: I decided to work out and see if I could make it. 11 minutes in, I gave in. It felt just like it had earlier today. It was near time for my girlfriend to come home, so I sate on the couch trying to watch some Youtube to take my mind off of it. When she arrived, I couldn’t keep what I had experienced to myself and cracked a bit when speaking it into the air. This is kind of scary and it’s weird that it’s happening when I’m doing something that should be healthy for me?

She cooked dinner I had picked up and did a bang-up job of it. Sheet Pan pork-chops. I had grabbed boneless and knew I’d regret it, and I did! They were a bit dry, but that’s what apple sauce is for. Everything was delicious, but my heart was still fluttering for the wrong reasons. We chilled, talked more about my heart, and watched some TV. Each of us hoped tomorrow would be better.

Tonight is game night. This time we saved left-overs for tonight (spaghetti squash and meatballs) so that we could focus on the game. Last time I spent time cooking and we just watch Pirates of the Caribbean (and I learned how to spell Caribbean, 39 years into my life!).

Looking forward to that I ate scrambled eggs and fresh spinach on the side for a change of pace for breakfast. Lunch was more tuna. And I enjoyed a seaweed snack later on.

Dinner was filling and a crowd pleaser, Catan was even better. We’ll get faster at it, but I won barely squeaking by 2 hours later. Not a very eventful day to write about. Didnt’ even exercise because I’m planning 1 on 1 off days now that I’m feeling back in the swing of things.

Tomorrow means 1 more week to go! Supes excited! As the kids say.

Another easy day. Guess what’s for breakfast today? Eggs! But no spinach (every single time I type that word I want to add two n’s!). Nope. I’m finally sick of it. Today I had it with spaghetti squash. And it was…interesting. I’m not sure how or if thyme and eggs go together…but it’s not for my pallet.

For lunch I had tuna…love this stuff and wish I could eat it on the regular. I should type my recipe out. It’s adapted from what my dad used to make, and whenever I tell someone about it they give me that look of uncertainty, bordering on incredulity. Black olives? In tuna?

Anyway, when I got home today, my girlfriend text me right as I parked letting me know she felt a headache coming on and she had left her medicine at home. I offered to drive it to her…but I did have to make tuna for lunch. She had already talked it over with her boss and had the okay to return home to get it if needed. So I went about making the tuna. 30 minutes later she said she’d probably be coming home afterall and that it was coming on. I wish there were something I could do for her migraines, and I really truly hoped Whole30 might do something for them, but it seems not. She’s a sport for going through with it though, I half-feel to show me that she’s tried just about anything she can. (The other half of me knows she wants to feel better, I’ve had hs eating large and food we don’t cook regularly).

When I got home, she was napping out the headache, but did tell me it was going away, thanks to the medicine. So I hoped on the rowing machine and did 3 races against increase CPU challengers. Lost to level 11 once, then defeated it, though much effort on the follow up. Normally I go for 20 minutes or so, but today was 30. And still, still! My watch doesn’t record more than 20 minutes of exercise. Must have went too easy against the level 9 one?

So I grabbed the kettle bell and did some swings for 11 minutes until the bar filled on my watch. Phew that was a serious workout, but I made it! I had the energy and the willpower to do it…and it felt good.

For dinner I planned to make pepper steak, like I used to when I went Keto for a few months. But had to make some changes for Whole30. Luckily we had everything we needed and it turned out well. Cauliflower rice is again a hero. My girlfriend even enjoyed it and she doesn’t really like bell peppers cooked.

I’m tempted to sing the song from childhood, “On top of Spaghetti”, but there’s no cheese to sing about. C’est la vie. Tonight we’re planning on spaghetti and meatballs. I’ll be following a 40apron’s recipe once again. I wish Cheryl Malik lived down the street and we were good enough friends that we could be invited to dinner. I’m just replicating what she says and it knocks it out of the park every. single. time. So, needless to say, I’m looking forward to dinner. Although I’m going with spaghetti squash instead of zucchini zoodles.

Today started as per usual… pack up some eggs and spinach and head off to work to eat them when I’m hungry. I’m actually nuking my eggs in the microwave. A little trick i learned from a Jimmy Dean’s sausage breakfast scramble in a cup from the local 7-11. And it’s still good, although growing a bit long in the tooth.

Lunch today? I genuinely forget. But I know it was on plan, I promise. When I remember I’ll update the post and replace this :x.

Went to the GrossOut again, and grabbed some needed stuff for tonight’s dinner. No almond meal though…. good thing we have that food processor at home. Cooking went without a problem, though it took a bit longer than expected but the end result is positively delightful and incredibly filling. When’s the last time you had just three meatballs with breadcrumbs? Usually I’m ready to eat at least 5… yet another go to recipe for the future. And with the spaghetti squash? fugheddaboudit!

Today I skipped breakfast, but I ate half an RX Bar and some fruit instead. I feel a bit guilty but still on task so I’m not sure why. It had more to do with me getting up late and needing to get to a meeting than anything.

I hoped going through this diet I’d be ready to greet the morning quicker. Back pain would go away. But all I’ve got is more energy in the day.. I’ll take it! Lunch was left over Tuna today, glad i made that. It made today a breeze. And I must make more! Lunch’s have been left overs, which have been great but having something different is better if only because it’s different.

I did a work out on the rowing machine again, and found how to race the computer! This makes things more interesting because now I have an “opponent” to strive against. The kettle bell is getting easier too

Dinner tonight was something my girlfriend wanted to cook: salmon benedict’s. I wasn’t sure how I felt about Hollandaise, and neither was she (primarily for the amount of Ghee the Whole30 book requested). However, I like this yo-yo of our time in the kitchen. It feels shared and loving, & I get some food I don’t normally gravitate toward — just speaking of change it’s nice to eat a protein I don’t tend to cook myself.

And again, I’m in awe of how good the food constantly is. I had a double-yolk egg, which dripped all over the fish and was reminiscent of a yolk on a burger. But I’m happy my girlfriend decided to quarter the recipe for Hollandaise … it was not very good. Taste like ghee and nobody wants to just eat ghee… it needs something to bind to or fry on? Long story short, just say “No” to Hollandaise on Whole30. You’ll appreciate it.